I am supposed to be sleeping else I will be damn tired tomorrow and yet I am still blogging :P Anyway...i took a nap just now cos I am really very tired...so I decided to have a good nap...even had the intention to sleep from 8 to next morning..if berlyn din call to disturb...and cos I haven had the chance to talk to this girlfriend val...for quite some time..so I thought we should just talk..and we talked...n talked for 2 hours i think...err ya, we are like some aunties...talk and talk non stop hahahaha...

Anyway, there was something that I encounter few days ago, and I decided that I am blogging about it...mmm, I went to attend this mmm ost launch thing...for a local movie...and the reason for me going was because my favourite guitarist was there :) he was performing...anyway...mmm usually, if i have a chance, i will walk over to him to take a picture for memories purpose...and its been ages since i took photo with him...and its also rare of me to be free on weekends...so i decided to go..and give my support...anyway...after taking photo with him, i decided to ask him where is the drummer as i was thinking maybe i can also take photo with him...so i asked him and he wasnt sure...but he was really really kind..to help me look around and try spot the drummer...at the same point of time, there comes this girl, who was the female lead...of the local movie...and...totally oblivious to the surrounding or me and haiyin, cos it was pretty obvious that we were sort of engaged in a conversation with the guitarist...she went up to the guitarist and started a conversation...she didnt even bother to acknowledge us(me and hy)...the guitarist, on the other hand, was really kind, as he continued to help me search for the drummer...while the girl talk to him...cos..i can see from his gesture..with him moving his head and body just to better see the crowd...and he even asked the girl if she saw the drummer...and me, being a fan, or crazy fan...was standing there...feeling kinda awkward..and i wanted to take my leave..cos i dont wish to be there as some persistent annoying fan, or some irritating people who hang around listening to people's conversation..but noting that the guitarist was still trying hard to help me find the drummer(with his eyes and movement).....and i keep asking hy if we should just leave...so that they can have their conversation..but yet, it isnt nice since he is in the midst of helping me look around...


ANyway...i just wanna say that, initially, i didnt really think about it...i just felt that its normal that people especially newbies to the media industry would naturally wanna seek comments or improvements from people(guitarist) who has been long in the market...but when the girl suddenly interrupt the conversation...i was all ready to go off...since mmm i wasnt supposed to be hanging there in the first place, i should have gone away after taking the photos...but noting that the guitarist was helping me, i was caught in a dilemma of leaving or not...and in fact, pretty surprise for the guitarist effort to help me...cos he can simply tell me that o sorry, i dont know where's the drummer...so i really appreciate his effort in doing so n he was really sincere in helping..from all his gesture...and that he did not ignore me when that girl came...in fact, i was prepared to be ignored...so that i can let them have their conversation..and if the guitarist really did that, i wont feel the least unhappy..cos i am clear of my stand, i am just a fan...anyway...on the other hand, i wasnt really please with that girl...the more i thought of it, the more i felt a little unhappy about it...cos...i think haiyin and i were big enough to be seen, we are not that short, and two of us standing there...so she should have seen us...and yet, she totally ignored our presence..and moved on to talk to the guitarist..which i thought that she was a little rude...(n my fren correct me of her being very rude, not just rude) when i told the fren about the incident..cos sometimes..i just need to know if i am being too sensitive abt judging people...

Anyway...at that instant moment, i felt that...that girl...could have felt that o well, they are just some fans..while she is some...actress...and that's the differentiation..therefore...she can just cut in and totally ignore our presence...a polite smile is good enough to acknowledge our presence..but obviously, she didnt even do that neither did she even look at us...so either that the lightings were really really dark till she cant c us...or she thinks we r some random people hanging there, trying to be funny or she ignored us completely...so mmm to me,i think this is an example of people...n maybe i am biased..but i think she should have seen us...cos she needs to pass by us before walking to the guitarist...therefore..i conclude that she should have seen us...and she simply ignored us...and to me, reminds me of times of people being a little full of themselves when they achieve little things in life...and yes, it does serve as a reminder..that i shouldnt be like them...

On the other hand, the guitarist has showed a positive demonstration...of seeing everyone withthe same eyes...which is why he really earn my respect...and to me, he can just ignore me, i was expecting that..or shake me off..by telling me that o he is not around..i dont know where he is...i mean, not that the guitarist is not a nice person..but i just think that its the norm...but he didnt...

N with her actions..i decided that i will not watch the movie...actually i did have intention to watch...cos mmm i am pretty supportive of local stuff...and mmm i thought i can just catch a movie with some friends..but her act has put me off..and made me feel that its not worth spending money to watch that movie...