OK, its a sunday evening again...time never fail to zoom past me!!! N i am seriously feeling worn out....but for some reason...i am feeling a little emotional today...in fact, since yesterday, i am down with this emo syndrome :P

Just last night, i was suddenly wondering....what's the purpose of my life? As in what I really want for my life? Very long ago....when i was still in my sec school, i really really hope that i can be a lyricist some days...the urge died down quite a bit as years goes by..but still, i really hope to be able to write songs(even 1 will do) to touch people's heart...then when i graduated last year, i took up lyrics writing course....and subsequently other music course like keyboard and melody composing....frankly speaking...i enjoyed every bit of it...in fact, these courses made me feel so alive! Having taken all these courses, it also allowed me to know people who are equally passionate about music...in fact, their passion has definitely supersede my passion...which sometimes put me to shame...cos...its like they spend lots of time writing lyrics...writing songs...and me? Other than the times when i need to hand in homework, i am always relax....not having an urgency to write....so unless, there is a rule that says, submit a melody every 1 month, then probably i will write it :P As for lyrics....i always fail to notice the email that was sent out...its like...mmm i open my email more than 8hours on weekdays....and then the demo was sent out on sat morning...so...is that fate?? hahaha...Anyway...ya..having said that, i was pondering really hard...so am I really that passionate about music? or yes, i am, but i am just too busy to spend more time with it...cos...frankly speaking, i am always busy with so many things on hand..n the words that one of my melody once told me rang in my head...its not how good u r at it, its how bad u want it...i think one of the teacher said the same thing too...and i have to say, i truly agree with them....

Anyway....the reason why i was thinking about this was because....mm i wanted to write a song for that someone i respected a lot(refer to previous post) last nite..but i realised, i am always procrastinating ;x but if i write her a song, what kind of theme should it be? Encouraging? Thankful? Or? N I dreamt of this someone calling me and assuring me as usual...and in fact, i was a bit sad to wake up n realised that its a dream :( N....anyway, this thing was then off my mind..until i watch this million dollar stars..where this person sang....除此之外 which made me almost teared...and some part of the lyrics can quite appropriately represent my tots! So check out that song man..its nice